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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 00:22:45 GMT

So as of right now I have officially hit the streets of California. Who would have ever imagined that I would be this far from my house doing something for the lord. To me it is just a feat that is simply amazing. Sometimes I feel that I am undeserving to even be in this grace and spotlight, but all in all I am thankful for the chance and opportunity to do God's will. The first day has so far been great. I pray that the rest may be the same, if not even better.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 14:41:31 GMT

We are people under the grace of a high and mighty God. We're under the reign of a God of love and mercy, whom forgives us when we mess up completely and who allows us a second chance when the rest of the world does not. Many people do not believe that this high and mighty God exist, rather they chose to deny his presence and existence. They try and do anything and everything to disprove the God that is, that was, and that will be. But what are they really gaining? In trying to justify the unjustifiable, they are simply losing themselves in an already lost world. I respect other people's opinions, and I try not to judge a person because of them. God made each and everyone of us and allowed us freedom to choose our paths, life or death. I want to become a testimony of that God, so that when others see me, they see a little bit of him in me. I'm a long way away, but everyone needs to start somewhere.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 02:06:46 GMT

Our Emotions are so inconsistent. They are not like the season's which are predictable and remain intact for an even 3 months each season (At least up here in New York). Yet human emotions are all over the place, as if they are jumping up and down, left and right, not ceasing and stopping for even a gasp of air. We must learn to be consistent .... I must learn to be consistent.

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 12:21:52 GMT

Pues como dice Vico C:

"Yo no lloro si caigo me levanto del lodo,
saco mi boligrapho y me desahogo"

Yo mancho la tinta en el papel,
estas liricas fueron inspirado por el dia de ayer,
el es fiel, sin manchas y sin dudas,
el te ama si estas cerca o si te muda,
este mundo es insensible,
cada dia las cosas se ponen mas terribles,
tus amigos fumando bluntes,
el mundo enfocado en 66 ron rones,
donde estan los dones,
lo que dios ha puesto en su mano,
has vendido tus principios por un paquete de yerba extrano?
eso te hace dano, pues lo que yo consumo me hace sentir mejor,
y eso se llama eterno amor, de aquel quien me saco del seor,
enfocate en la mission, no en la prision,
pues el decendera aya de zion,
tu caminas con el gatillo con la proffesion de pillo,
tu matas a to la gente y te ha convertido en un delinquente,
estar presente, cuando venga el final,
mis emotiones y alma voy a derramar,
el precio vas a tener que pagar,
la cuenta del pecado es la muerte,
no la puedes esquivar aunque tenga buena suerte,
te lo dije del principio que deje tus malos vicios,
esto no es ficticio, esto es real,
vivimos en un mundo que niega lo espiritual,
las drogas y el sexo andan rampante
los ninos en la calle tratan de ser maliantes,
pero no te espante, no hemos llegado al destino,
mucho mas falta para hacer, a llegar a lo divino

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 02:17:00 GMT

Sometimes I feel like in this life we need a mission statement. Something we ourselves set to direct (get this) ourselves in the right direction. We lose focus way too many times and commit too many errors go to on living without a central focus. I want to live life in such a way that I do not regret any given moment. That if I cry, my tears be of joy and happiness and not of sorrow. Jesus was a man of sorrows for he carried the burden of each and everyone of our sins. No sin is big, and no sin is small, i consider all sin the same. They are vile, dirty, and unacceptable. Why do we continue to sin if we know that Christ died for our sins. Imagine that every time was commit a sin we crucify and kill Christ one more time. It is as if we are committing murder each and everyday. He carried our sin as well as our sorrows ... the pain he felt, he felt for us all. Us = you and I. We fall ... but he lifts us all and calls for attention and focus. What is my mission ... what is my goal ... what do I want from this life? Where will it get me .... and how do I go about doing?

Lord ... show me the way

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 19:25:00 GMT

C.H.A.N.G.E

We always shutter when people critique our very existence. We become defensive and self righteous trying to figure out excuses for why we do the things that we do. But in such a spirit of self righteousness we never consider Change. Change to us is something extraordinarily evil. It is a force that we do not reckon with or even mention. Its as if we have instilled in our minds that Change is something negative and that it can only bring about destruction. Yet there always comes a point where our minds meet our hearts and they have an extensive meeting about many issues. They discuss the past, the future, love, hate, intelligence, good decisions that were made, bad decisions that were made, but one topic that they always seem to skip over is the topic of Change.Think about it this way. The world as we know it has many defects, one prime example are the issues occurring in Darfur. Genocide has overtaken the country as countless lives are being exterminated each and everyday. Imagine the United Nations have a meeting and discussing oil prices, embargoes, democracy, but totally skipping over the situation in Darfur. We are a society full of fear. Fear of what is to come and fear of change. Fear dwells so strongly within our hearts that at times i feel that we are so fearful, that we never truly live. We can't ... we're too scared. So I say this ...

Lord, I want to Change I don't want to be fearful anymore. You have given me this life to be different, to make a Change in this world. If we want to see the Change, then we must be the Change. I want to live ...

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Sun, 05 Aug 2007 19:08:14 GMT

Proverbs 27:5

Better is open rebuke
than hidden love.

Chapt 1 :14 hebrews

Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?

2 corinthian 13:1-11

This will be my third visit to you. "Every matter must be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses."^[a] 2I already gave you a warning when I was with you the second time. I now repeat it while absent: On my return I will not spare those who sinned earlier or any of the others, 3since you are demanding proof that Christ is speaking through me. He is not weak in dealing with you, but is powerful among you. 4For to be sure, he was crucified in weakness, yet he lives by God's power. Likewise, we are weak in him, yet by God's power we will live with him to serve you.

5Examine yourselves to see whether you are in the faith; test yourselves. Do you not realize that Christ Jesus is in you—unless, of course, you fail the test? 6And I trust that you will discover that we have not failed the test. 7Now we pray to God that you will not do anything wrong. Not that people will see that we have stood the test but that you will do what is right even though we may seem to have failed. 8For we cannot do anything against the truth, but only for the truth. 9We are glad whenever we are weak but you are strong; and our prayer is for your perfection. 10This is why I write these things when I am absent, that when I come I may not have to be harsh in my use of authority—the authority the Lord gave me for building you up, not for tearing you down.

1 tim 4:6

6If you point these things out to the brothers, you will be a good minister of Christ Jesus, brought up in the truths of the faith and of the good teaching that you have followed

2 juan 8

Watch out that you do not lose what you have worked for, but that you may be rewarded fully.

Psalms 15:1-5

1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?
Who may live on your holy hill?

2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart

3 and has no slander on his tongue,
who does his neighbor no wrong
and casts no slur on his fellowman,

4 who despises a vile man
       but honors those who fear the LORD,
       who keeps his oath
       even when it hurts,

5 who lends his money without usury
       and does not accept a bribe against the innocent.
       He who does these things
       will never be shaken.

5:4 ecclesiates

4 When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfilling it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow. 5 It is better not to vow than to make a vow and not fulfill it. 6 Do not let your mouth lead you into sin. And do not protest to the temple messenger, "My vow was a mistake." Why should God be angry at what you say and destroy the work of your hands? 7 Much dreaming and many words are meaningless. Therefore stand in awe of God.

Proverbs 1:32

For the waywardness of the simple will kill them,

Friday, August 03, 2007

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 15:42:57 GMT

I can't help but feel lost as if my spirit is wandering to the ends of the earth. It is a feeling that is difficult to control and even more difficult to identify the reasons why my soul feels that way. Yet I remain ... and theres still more to come

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 02:13:48 GMT

Ok me rindo.

Yo comienzo esta cancion con adoracion, arrepentido de toda mi situacion.

yo le pido perdon a mis amigos que he herido en el camino me he desviado de mi destino.

mis palabras fueron fuerte y yo tuve mala suerte, pero ahora es diferente soy un hombre bendicido

dios ha decidido a usarme en su camino. yo no me desvio y tampoco quiero meterme mas en lios.

han llegado tiempos frios necesito de tu abrigo por que eres mi mejor amigo.

Mami perdoname por los tiempos que he dudado de tu amor

yo se que yo no soy un hijo perfecto pero quiero ser mejor.

yo te amo de lo mas profundo de mi corazon y

aunque a veces siento la tension yo te pido de lo mas profundo mi perdon

Dios tu eres mi razon de vivir,

y me rindo en esto cual se llama existir

Monday, July 30, 2007

Mon, 30 Jul 2007 19:37:00 GMT

Helpless

I just can't help feeling that this world around me will one day consume me completely and overtake my soul. I can't help feeling hopeless and desperate needing a divine touch from the lord. I can't help feeling useless and wasted, as if I have no purpose whatsoever in this world. Last night was a bad night but I owe that all to myself. I am so unsure of the future and of my life that sometimes it feels that I am a sinking ship in the water trying to bring everyone down with me. And truthfully that is not what I want to do. I want people to escalate to such a high level that their spiritual lives and physical lives will bask in glory. This feeling of helplessness comes from deep within. It is a virus that is tied down with pain, bolted with agony. It must leave before I hurt anymore people. I love my friends and I love my family, and I don't want to lose them because of this death stricken disease.